I SIGNED UP FOR MY FIRST COMPETITION!
And now ... I don't know if it's regret or fear but I'm doubting the decision that I made to sign up. This afternoon on my lunch break while I was scanning Facebook I came across the thread in which the Rookie Rivalry Competition Event was posted. I started to look through the post and "creeping" on the other women signing up and I got a sudden overwhelming sense of doom. WHY IN GODS NAME DID I THINK THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA? All of these other women have been doing CrossFit for awhile, were in FAR better shape than I, and were going to kick my ass. I'm literally going to have my ASS handed to me at this event. Sure, I've overcome some obstacles, dropped some weight, gained some muscle, but shoot; I'm no where in any sort of shape to be competing with these women. Can I get a mulligan? A do-over? Can I just go to an event further out where I might stand a fighting chance? I know none of that is possible but it's the only thing that sounds reasonable to me at the moment. I hate losing. Even worse .. I hate losing that badly.
So what am I going to do? I'm going to continue my training and add more days to my schedule and I'm going to try to be more positive about all of this. I mean after all, this was something that I wanted to accomplish this year, why not knock it off of the calendar earlier than planned? Yikes. I'm definitely going to need some positive reinforcement on this one guys, maybe a nudge or ten but I know that I can count on all of you to help me over this hurdle. With my CFN family behind me I know that I can turn this scary goal into something that I'll be incredibly proud of immediately once I'm finished, 1st place or not.
Dawn is a participant in CrossFit Nashua's 2015/2016 "Fit-For-Life" program. Participants track their progress in the CrossFit training program during the coming 1-year period and log their progress in this blog. Best of luck Dawn, in meeting your training goals!