When I started this process of getting my life back I had one goal in mind and that was to get healthy. I didn’t care about the weight, my looks or anything else like that. I just wanted to be healthier and whatever that looked like really didn’t matter to me. Feeling better, moving better and being better was it, job 1.
Now that I am 5 weeks into it and my wife says she can see me “deflating” I have taken more of an interest in my weight, but not obsessing about it. I have promised myself from the very start that I will not obsess about my weight; it was all about feeling good. I am keeping true to that promise but at the same time I have start taking a pedestrian interest in my weight. You see I started out at 338 according to the scale at the box but in reality that was after 1 week of doing CrossFit. I firmly believe that I was well over 340 and only climbing. My obsession with bad food, bad liquids, and my complete and utterly laziness had me only going in the wrong direction.
Since then I have started to weigh myself on a weekly basis, this is big news since prior to this my wife had to guilt trip me, as well as threaten me to get on the scale. I always had some excuse as to why I did not have “time” to weight myself. Really? Time to weight myself, that whole three seconds was so important to me that I could not waist it on weighing myself? More excuses as you can tell, I am full of them. Just ask me to do the dishes and I will give you a few.
So the reason I bring this up now is because my most recent weigh in on Monday, yes it is always Monday. I chose Mondays as they usually are horrible so I needed a positive thing on Mondays. I have changed my outlook on weighing in from a negative experience to a positive experience and every week it is positive, because I use it as a data point my in travel from the unhealthy to the healthy parts of living. I use it as a portion of my motivation to keep moving forward with my commitment to being a better me. I use it to show that my eating healthier, thanks to my wife, and my working out is having a massively positive effect on my life, my attitude, and my overall ability to deal with things in a constructive manner rather than a destructive manner.
As of today, I am feeling good, moving good and living good. I still have those days when I do not want to go to the box, but in the end I go. Because I need to be better than I was yesterday and that is my avenue to my goal. This place, as much as I dislike it while working out, is my sanctuary, my mecca, my feel good (after the workouts) place. I am blessed to be able to do this with the help of Eric, Sarah, Corey, Moonshine and old Man (Mike Squared).
These people do not know it yet, but I truly believe they saved my life in the long run and I will be eternally grateful for their generosity and willingness to work with me. Oh and btw.. I am down to 318 as of this morning.
Mike is a participant in CrossFit Nashua's 2015/2016 "Fit-For-Life" program. Participants track their progress in the CrossFit training program during the coming 1-year period and log their progress in this blog. Best of luck Mike, in meeting your training goals!