OBSTACLES: Well I’ve decided that it’s only an obstacle if you let it get in the way…… So with that being said I decided it was time to take a closer look at what some of my true obstacles have been both within the time frame of my Cross-Fit journey and beyond. In searching all the obstacles I came to realize it’s ME and only ME. I need to get out of my own way !!
I’ve recently closed out the month of May, looked back at how many WODs I’ve done and the added cardio I’ve been putting in and been proud of myself for the first time in a very long time. I was feeling good and more importantly strong.
Thanks to the great coaches, in the month of May I was able to do things I hadn’t been able to do before like progress to heavier weights/kettlebells, plank and even jog outside. It was a good feeling. I was actually looking forward to my weigh-in and that has never happened. I think towards the end of May I thought I might actually have been able to see changes in the mirror. So that last Saturday in May would be the true confirmation for me, I knew a double digit weight loss must be a lock and I couldn’t wait to hear it.
Well the dream came to a crashing end when Eric let me know I had only lost ONE pound since my April weigh-in. Now some of you might think I’m crazy but I don’t honestly know how much I weigh nor at this point do I want to know. There is a history there and I don’t want to revisit an obsession with the scale. Besides as long as the number is a negative I’m ok with it or so I thought. Of course Eric being the supportive coach that he is assured me not to let it bother me that he was seeing improvements and that I shouldn’t let that one pound bother me.
Easier said than done. I was hurt and confused and the 45 minute ride home wasn’t pretty. I was unrealistically sure I gained back all the weight I had lost in an instant, I was completely disappointed in myself. I avoided everybody for 48 hours in fear that I would disappoint people with my pathetic ONE pound. Could this be that point like so many times before where giving up would be the only option.
Well thanks to many of you, without knowing it, you have helped me. The answer was HELL NO!! A little voice inside me said SUCK IT UP BUTTER CUP you need to figure out your plan of attack for the ½ Murph you plan on doing Monday. So obstacle overcome! Look at that!
Amy is a participant in CrossFit Nashua's 2015/2016 "Fit-For-Life" program. Participants track their progress in the CrossFit training program during the coming 1-year period and log their progress in this blog. Best of luck Amy, in meeting your training goals!